oh fuck

Tired of being lonely

But i'm too lazy to find someone

I don't want to go out and hook up with some strangers just because i'm lonely

But i don't want to just sit and wait for someone to accompany me

It's simple

Yet i make it so complicated

I'm afraid to drown in my thoughts

God knows how dark my mind can be

It's messy

And people hate messy and imperfect things

People say to love yourself

But how can you love yourself when you love no one?

I believe Loving someone is one way to love yourself

When you love someone you tend to bring out the best of yourself

Yet i never loved anyone and never bring out the best of me

So how can i love myself?

To love someone you have to go out and find someone

But what if you're an introvert and hate people?

What if you're too tired and too lazy to find someone?

What if when you find someone and he already reject you when you even didn't show or tell him anything about your feeling?

Well yeah, it's a complicated mind